Time

it has been a long time i dint visit here.
i though time will let my feeling on you reduce...
time will let me forget about you...
time will let me turn into new leaf...
time will let me not to sad anymore...
time...time...time.....
but until now.....
still cant
hahaha
still will miss you...
still think about you...
stil will concern about you..
the feeling even deep to my heart during the night..
i know you are living happily and having the life that you like...
happy and smile always...
haha..
looks like we having the right choice that time...
both of us live in the way that we like...
although i still miss you..
but i wunt went into your life anymore...
try to maintain your happiness...
without me..
i wish you happy long life......
>.<

happy brithday

tomorrow is your birthday....
i already bought a present to you..
however i think i wont give that present...
lots of plan that has been make when we are still togeter..
to celebrate a diffrent and special brithday celebration with you..
but..
that all will never happen again...
there are not any turning point between us
i totally give up...
even the try to be your best friends..
also cant be make..
happy brithday..
wish you happy always
>.<

Friend

all relationship start from friend
but now
am i still your friend>>??
i am still wonder how is the situation when we meet each other in future
what to talk
what is the face motion
or we just pass through
i dint hope that will happen to us
i hope at least there are still friend between us
but i not dare to hope that we will together in future
just hope that we can at least be friend
and you living happily
that is enough for me
i dun know you still have the feeling with me or not
but i am sure i am still have the feeling with me now
i am still love you
wish you happy always
i am still with my promises
i think this few years i wont in any relationship anymore
haha

incomplete in my world

almost 1 month without you
i've tried to go on like i never knew you
i'm awake
but my world is half asleep
without you
all i'm going to be is
incomplete
i'm still wonder if i'm making mistake
yes i'm
i dont means to drag it on
just
i still cant let go
i Love you
wish you live happily
>.<

Days without you 2

another 1 weeks without you
no contact
totally lost news about you
same as last week
been busy this whole weeks
but you still at my mind
the feeling
still there
i realise that
my world
like missing something
feel weird
don't know why..
just feel like my world is not prefect
everything i have been done this few weeks
cant satisfied me
although it seem like successful for other people
but i feel that
i am still failed
i cant enjoy the atmosphere
i will feel happy and enjoy even celebrate it if this things happen to me before
but now
i feel nothing
feel bored
keep on working but don't know why and what i am working with
committee all happy
the event move on smoothly and achieve a great success
my project and coursework gain high in grade
exam just around the corner
and i am almost ready for that
but
i just feel there are something wrong
as i said before
my world is not prefect anymore
no one can replace it
no one
no one

Days without you

14 days and 8 hour..
i totally lost contact with her
msn
no
sms
no
phone call
no
email
no
haiz
try to been in busy to avoid thinking about her
work day and night
keep on busy with my own things
try to make my stuff on track
however
all this things cant stop me from thinking about her
what she fell?
did she happy?
take meal ad>?
raining did she go class?
how she go?
did she prepared for her exam
exam just around the corner
but i worry bout her more than myself studies
funny right?
at the end so many things i had been done
i realise i still cant forget her
the feeling still there
even thought i try very hard to let go
but...
soulless pig....
my heart still with her
may be time will bring me go through all this thing
wish her happy always...

wrong

it has been 1 month after my last post.
During this month i have go through it badly
so are she..
this 2 day i din sleep at night
miss her
but i m thinking what will happen to us next
i only realise that i give too much pressure to her
our relationship will grown till so bad is because of me..
i never think about her thinking and feeling
all i think is about me only
what i feel and i think is always right for me
i even selfish till i wan her change herself to become part of my world
to become what i wan
i m the 1 who cause this all happen
i only can blame myself..
people who make us like this is me
not she or her friends
is me
selfish kelvintsc
haix...
this few day really miss her
want call her and text
every time i bring up my phone
i wrote the message
at the moment i type the number
i delete it
not dare to send it out
want call her
scare her not happy to answer my phone
now i just hope she can happy all the time
if possible
give me another chance
to treat her good
not hoping whether we will together back or not
as long as she happy
that's is the great news i want to hear every day
i am still waiting another chance to stand beside her
at least we can like before
sorry
i love you